The original title for this post was
“I Suck at Running.”
But that seems a little dramatic (and utterly void of all perspective), doesn’t it?
If you’re looking for my typical recommendations on positive self-talk, the importance of believing in yourself and finding motivation from the inside, today is not that day.
Today, I am wallowing in self-pity over having one too many horrible, painful, no-good runs in a row. If I were 3 years old, this is what you would call a temper tantrum, possibly in the middle of a crowded grocery store where every person is glad I’m not their child. It is ridiculous. It is offensive (there are SO many things that could be worse, and this is the most terrible thing in my life).
I think I lost my running mojo. I suppose it was unrealistic for me to believe that nearly all my runs could continue to feel good and be faster than I’d ever trained. Or I could continue juggling life and training with equal intensity and focus.
I don’t want to feel like I suck at running. I don’t like to have to stop and walk during every run. I don’t like seeing times on my Garmin that are way slower than I know I can.
So, I’m going to do something about it. I’m going to stop bitching talking about it and start taking action. There’s no one to blame but myself and no one who can fix it but me. No more excuses. No more putting it off. No more sleeping in. No more creating my weekly schedule and only doing half of it.
There will always be ups and downs when it comes to running. It comes with the territory. But I’ve been on a string of downs for too long, and as much as I love running downhill, I’m ready to go back up. So here I go.
